I forgot... I work to 9

As I sit here at Station 10 in 73 there are a few things that are on my mind...

1. Why is my room so fucking messy although I was not in it this weekend?


2. I have a lot of technical support to do.


3. I buy too many games on impulse (SC4, Castleveina SOTN, DS Lite)


4. Wtf with Study Abroad?


5. Lost Odyssey Please (LOP)

I am really hungry, I have been eating two meals a day and not taking anything supplemental. After the intense workout that was tubing, and then push-ups and lifting I am still in pain! When I came home yesterday Steve dropped me off, and gave me 52$ and a Redbull for SC4. I figured hounding him for 5 dollars after he took me out all weekend would be immature and stupid; I am reminded of Luther's debt. I have been dry for a few days running, and I am not sure if that is a bad thing. I have tried to be more productive at home, but because I had a lot to catch up on when I got home last night, I left the cleaning and the tech shaz until a later date. /h/ keep me busy until about 2am last night. Also I played SOTN some more, I was trying to get far enough to get the double jump, but I died like 20 minutes after the first boss due to Avena Lee distractions on my second monitor. I think I am going to go rogue for a while and just take care of a lot of things that I have to do. JT did this in the last two weeks, and Friday I talked to him for about an hour or more. He told me about my shades, and how he basically tried to get them fixed the same way I did. The problem is I do not have the receipt anymore. So if I can not get them repaired, that means the buy was less then 5 months old before it died. I will do my best to complete my room and technical things by the end of the week. These are only going to be my number 3 and 4 focus. Qing and work will be 1 and 2. Which sadly makes LOP 5. Dope shot from FFXIII

My new boss is a lot worst then Rob my old boss. Although rob was probably a fake poser, at least I did not get a lame ass vibe from him. Jake seemd to talk highly of him, but my first experience of him was him pushing his cell phone in my face to show me a picture of his daughter without any warning. Maybe he doesn't know I don't really like kids, and I definitely don't like people who shamelessly promote their own kids to strangers. I should have taken my phone out and showed him a picture of a dead rabbit or something like YAH SO KOOL RIT? We are getting Cosi for lunch (which is just unflavored white people sandwiches) I had no choice in the matter.

I have my SP just open at the music choose menu so I can just listen to the Tetris A-type music. I figured that will at least add more veriaty to Jake and my typing/voices. I just play a quick game until I die, then type/call. I feel this might be the best way to past the time. I am trying to refine my typing speed back to what it used to be in my prime. I have not written a paper in a while so I do not what to become sluggish before the school year starts. I need to get this BT add on for my phone.

Qing texted me asking to go to the mall after work. She was getting out at 4:30, but I don't think she knew I was getting out at 9. I think I need new pillows too, my neck if fucking killing. I replied to tell her, and she said fine. I asked her to come visit me when she is out, and she said ok. This is weird because last night when I was talking to her she said she did not want to see me this week and I was unsure why. She later sends this text "You can come to the galleria with me, I think I might get out a little later than you." Now my question is why say you don't want to see me this week last night, then invite me to the mall less then 12 hours later. Then gets mad when I say I am confused about what to do and how to act. She wants me to act for myself in a "pro-qing" way. In spiderman 3 Aunt May says "A good husband must put his wife before him." I told her there are elements of this that struck a cord with our situation, but we are not married and I have a vibrant life of my own that she was a critical part of. I think she feels robbed in the relationship because we do so much that focuses on me. I feel better that I can constuct my thoughts to then directly ask her questions later. No offense, I do not think she is smart enough to solve the complex relationship issue fairly, but I also feel I do not have adaquit information to resolve either; so why not give her a chance?

I am less entertaining, because life has become more work and less fun. Figures.

Weekend @ Steves + SC4

It was a troublesome week with Qing issues on the rise and my relationship seemingly falling apart. I packed her things from my house on Friday at her request. At first she wanted me to bring it to her, but I figured if I packed her things and brought it to her it would be like I was the one asking her to leave. I told her she had to come get it herself and I will help. This allowed me to test how serious she was about wanting to leave or if she was trying to make a mood point. It was clearly the latter. I drove to her house and brought the Ionic Breeze.

I feel like I see ghost a lot...

I got to her house and I planned just to keep quiet and do my best to show her I am disturbed by what we were going through. She got me a drink, showed me the bathing suit she was going to wear later, and then began to ask me question. Now with me, when I am attacked no matter by who or when I retaliate. She brought up all sorts of things from the past, as far back as the first summer we were together. The topic was about me calling on my travels away; it is true I have never really called anyone when I am away. I told her I was different and if I went to NH with Steve Craig and Jay this weekend I could show her. The reason I had to ask her if I could go was because I made plans with her to go paintballing, (which she later told me failed due to her friends...ironic?) and wanted to opt out now. During my defensive spout she cried and told me to leave. She told me if I stayed longer I would just ruin her day. I hopped in the car and sped off pissed at the thought that I did not get the last word in. I texted "Thanks for the juice, don't forget the sunblock". She was going to go to the beach later and I figured I should try to accept her crying as a normal response to anything emotionally challenging instead of dreading on what I did and why it happened.

I got home packed, ate and called Steve to figure out when I had to get the commuter rail to meet him. On my way out my house in the heat with my suitcase I saw Dj Norms pull up and he offered me a ride. I got in and Steve calls. He missed his train and now I had time to kill. I had a little action left from the other night with Kevin and Dan, and the following night with Craig and Steve. I was bringing it to NH with me, but decided to engage Norms instead. Danny scavenged us down pretty badly in my back yard, but I did not mind because it would have just gotten me into a hater mood.

I eventually get dropped off at ruggles, get in the wrong commuter rail cart because I was following some hottie asain girl and her sister into their cart. I got my Tetris on also, I have my old gray Game Boy cartridge and it still works in the Gamerboy SP, but DS lites do not have a space for the original cartridge what gives? Now steve had my ticket so I was about to get owned when the train people came by asking for tickets. I explained that steve was behind me, and the train man said he will find him. Steve eventually links up with me, we go to his house where Craig was waiting outside with Iced Coffees for us. The coffees were terrible. While steve packed his things craig and I played MLB 08 The show. Good baseball game, and I was actually enjoying playing although I had no idea what I was doing. What I did notice was craig would purposely not tell me to keep the advantage, a behavior that was later exhibited in NH during Soul Calibur 4 gameplay. Once Jay arrived we headed out.

We stopped twice, one time to eat at Boson Market, and another to go to Best Buy where I purchased Soul Calibur 4. Although I have no money to buy sixty dollar games right now, I feel like steve did not really want to buy it, and if I did want to buy it like I said why would I ask him to get it instead of getting it myself. I tried to explain that I can get it cheaper in Boston even though we were in no tax NH. I figure I will sell it to steve for 60 or 55 or something, after playing it all weekend now he wants to buy it himself, how ironic.

While in NH we played SSBB, SC4, Marvel:UA, and Jet Skied and Swam. Jet Skiing was crazy how fun it was. We went tubing also where steve would pull me like 30 Mph behind the Jet Ski and I would just use all my strength to hold on during his insane driving and turns. I WISH I could have had "Forever Young" (Which I no longer own due to my external crash) playing while I rode, but another time I suppose. We played catch in the water and off a small landing dock for a while. We were just chilling enjoying the remarkably warm water. We went to dinner at 7 with his parents and grandparents and that was simply hilarious. His gramdma is from a different generation and the things that come out of her mouth are halarious. We were at the salad part of our meal and she was commenting on kalimari on top the salad, and says "Ah it is really more pleasurable on top". I could not help but laughing so I had to put my hand over my mouth. Steve mom also had a few moments herself, but we were talking on our side of the table for a while. We went to a thai restaurant where the service was the worst I have ever seen. It took two and a half hours to serve 8 people food.

It poured, and the Red Sox won 12-2. We came home gamed some more, and around 12:30 steve was getting tired from all the days prior activities and took off. Craig Jay and I stayed up for a while and finished Spider man 3 that was on TV. We figured why not have a laugh and watch it and just comment on everything. Craig is actually quit knowledgeable about film, and now I see why Tyler brought him to Beliz. We have to head out early tomorrow due to a death so there will be no boating this trip around, I hope I get a picture of Lake Winipassaki. (sp).